I need things to do. These last two days were horrible, particularly because the previous two days were so great. Being busy all day long, objectives,important meetings - it was great. But today, I have spent it waiting for tomorrow basically. My friends / board members seemed to have bailed out on their plans to discuss things early, so now we wait until tomorrow night. It seems like it is taking forever to wake up and get their asses (and heads) out of summer. And it pisses me off when people say they want to do something and then show no initiative. Even more so when they change their plans and not tell me. Someone wanted to meet up, and then bailed out because their friend wanted me to do something. They said they would call later on that day, but nothing.
It's like - what the ****? If you don't want me to do something, just say so. I'm tired of this 'ethical lying" bull****. I don't like college kids either, and everyone seems immature.
But I know - all these expectations and desires lead to my own suffering.
Talking about my type again on the16 is annoying. I could be ENTj I suppose, and I do not mind considering it. But I am not INTj or INFj or INFp or INTp -- and it is extremely irritating to hear people make claims like that over and over again. I realize people don't know me, but still - I wonder if I should bother listing my type at all. Hopefully, I will be so busy I won't even have time to come online and get pissed off at that forum.
Look, I like socionics, and it is a great tool that I use daily. But right now it is just a pain, because I know there are other things I ought to be working on anyways.
I'm getting to sleep at a good time, and waking up early, which is great, because I can have good energy all day long. I want to be primed for my classes so I absorb material easily. Have from 8-3 each day be my power hours, then rest and study, and do more acivitiies in the later afternoon, and then study some more, eat, and go to sleep and to it again the next day. Work hard every week day, have saturday be another study day / football day, and sunday be my family/rest day. (I may switch saturday and sunday because for me saturday is game day)... we'll see. But it would be kind of cool to have "Sabbath day", actually be my rest day - for reflection, family, rest, etc.
So that is where I stand right now.
I was talking with someone last night about my beliefs, and how I have to go further into being my real self. I am not so sure my actions online helped that or were in the direction today, and in retrospect they may not totally be in the right direction. But it will be important for me to realize what I have to do, and harness it, and my experience.
Harness and keep up my energy, too. I should be able to boil my work down, if I do it right. I just have to keep eating and keep the intensity up, and I should be fine. Just allow myself to be myself -- the more I hold back, the more uncomfortable.
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In front of his superiors he is not shy, even becomes aggressive. He knows that business only then goes perfectly if the necessary tempo is set from the very beginning.
socionics ain't all that... those people are just plain retarded if they think they can type somebody they've only ever talked to over the internet accurately.
btw, Courage, various prominent members of the forum have accused me of being Fi subtype, Fi base, Fi role, and Fi polr. now, how good can these typing skills be if that's the range that they come up with??
pfft, don't listen to them...even though it's vastly annoying how easily they are willing to dismiss *you* (hence my sigline in there about taking the person out of personality and then linking it to that forum)
Oh, and I forgot.... a couple of them even went so far as to suggest to me that if i'd stop being so emotional about it, then i'd see that i was a logical type
that Firefly song honestly makes my eyes tear up... it's just beautiful. There's something about the tone of the show too that ups that whole feeling. It's very human, or something....
Sorry you had a bad couple days, but overall your plan sounds good UDP. And as far as typing and such goes - it matters very little. The ones proclaiming the loudest that they know such and such are often the ones who have spent the least amount of time and effort actually understanding the person they're trying to type. People are a whole lot more than a collection of functions you can analyze. We're complex critters, and arguing with a person you've never met, telling them that you know them better than they know themselves, seems pretty arrogant and ignorant.
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Oh, and I forgot.... a couple of them even went so far as to suggest to me that if i'd stop being so emotional about it, then i'd see that i was a logical type
